For a Taurus, any change is threatening. We are Earth signs and our homes are our sanctuary. The last week has seen an upheavel in my living space which, I am delighted to say. I'm... well... delighted with! I'll be posting photos later on today. But here's just a bit of the thought process that I underwent in the first 18 hours from the time the idea was first brought forth until the deed was done...
" I can't work upstairs in my loft studio anymore. It's too crowded. There's no space. I'm totally claustrophobic..." (emotional meltdown proceeds in front of ever-patient partner) " I don't know what to do. If you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them right about now..."
Ever-patient partner, Tony, recommends dispensing with living area and making it into nice bright airy work space...
" Wow! Yes, that's a great idea! I'd love to have my workspace on the same floor as everything else. It makes so much more sense... "
Positive discussion ensues as to what are the alternatives for living space use. Successful decisions reached...
" Yes let's get rid of it all tomorrow... "
Later on...
" No, you know what? I should try to make the effort to sell it all over the next few days... " (estimated value of all furniture incl old TV - $ 20.00 but the seeds of panic are sprouting)
That same evening I tell my girlfriend all about it: " I can't tell you how excited I am about this..."
Time for bed... sleep...
Wakes up at 3.00 a.m. " OH no, I can't possibly do this, where will we sit and relax, and what if Tony doesn't like it, and ... " (It was Tony's suggestions that we watch movies sitting on the bed, we spend most of our time sitting talking at the table after supper, and we also have two wonderful rocking chairs...)
" No! I'm not going to do it... I'll hate it. I'll have got rid of all the furniture, then what will I do... "
Gets up, makes tea and calms down a bit...
" OK - I can do this. It will give me a chance to get everywhere clean and tidy and organised... that will be really great..."
Panic sets in again at the thought of what all that tidying and organising will entail...
"No! It's no good. I can't do this. I'm definitely not going to do it... "
Sleep... finally
Awakens to Tony making tea in the morning: " I know I said I was going to wait and sell it but I really want it gone. I want it gone now..."
Removal of stuff begins immeditely. Tony knows me better than to give me more time to think. I go upstairs to the loft studio to get boxes to put stuff in...
" I love this loft studio. I love being up here. It's not so bad at all..." Luckily this was not said aloud...
And yes, it is the same loft studio referred to in the beginning of the post...
Everything removed and now on back of truck...
" Oh thank goodness, I can breathe! I love this. I can get under the stairs totally cleaned out, and clean the blinds and I can finally get some work done... "
Parting comment to Tony, who had far better things to do at 9:00 am on his way to work and climb trees:
" This is great. I can get working down here and in my spare time clean out the upstairs loft studio and then I can move back up there if I want the living room area back later... "
To his credit, he kept smiling...
1 comment:
Awww, I really like Tony he is such a sweetheart and you are going to make a great space down stairs.
I love how he supported you and helped you along. I'm sorry about the melt downs.
Man I know how that goes.
Blessings.
Tina
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